Lady Bugs

So today I found 3 lady bugs in my room. And I don't really appreciate them being called "lady bugs" cause then it makes it mean to dislike them. I really have a dis-affinity for anything that flies and is tiny. Because I fear that they will fly into my ear. There's nothing you can do to stop it...it's just always open. At least your mouth you can close and your nose you can exhale rapidly to blow it out. But your ear...that's kinda a losing battle if anything makes it in there.

But so I think these ladybugs bothered me so much because of a christmas vacation my family took once to Tennessee. The vacation was probably one of the funnest I've had. But we rented a cabin, and there were ladybugs all over the place. And I mean literally all over, but particularly on the ceiling (which happens to be where I found my 3 now dead friends...). So I think I was worried that I would start having a multitude of them march into my living space, and decided to co-habitate. This is an idea I am not too keen on. But then my girlfriend calmed me down, and reminded me that they are indeed just ladybugs....dumb little buggers....

So the other day I was realizing how our minds tend to want to think the best in situations. For instance, can you recall any time you saw a person from far away, and thought they looked horrendous...and then they came closer and you thought "huh...they look better than I thought"? No...i can tell you what we are wired to do, we're wired to see a person from far away...our mind thinks "that is a decent looking person" and then up close we think "wow...i was so wrong..they are hideous!" Your mind is wired to think the best of a person, to give them teh absolute benefit of the doubt. Even though I'm not familiar with being drunk, I assume this is the reason people look better then too, because you just don't have clear perception and your mind automatically assumes the best.

Annnnyway, i have one more final left and I am finished with classes. I'm excited for it to be over tomorrow...I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I do know I'll have a hard time letting myself relax and just enjoy my time off. My family is actually going to North carolina this christmas. Which means I'll be home by myself, which in some ways can be relaxing but around christmas I prefer people, even though I generally can be a secluded person. So this year I am looking to surround myself with people as much as possible. We'll see what turns up...regardless I'll at least have time with the family dog, and he is one cool mutt...so that's not bad at all...not, at, all.